"this doomsday clock tickin in my heart"--smashing pumpkins

woke up feeling giddy and unimaginably happy. if there is such a thing as love, i expect it to feel like this. what brought on such feelings? sleep. 8 straight hours of uninterrupted, deep, deep sleep. the world could've collapsed, and i would've slept right through it. i want to hug my last night's sleep. it's been a long time since i've been able to sleep through a full night without either being woken up either by a phone call from a nurse informing me of a patient i need to see, or the uncomfortable sort of sleep i get when i have an alarm set and am afraid i'll sleep right through it. i've never actually slept through an alarm clock...but that doesn't stop me from stress sleeping every night.

sometimes in my sleep i stress about who my attending will be the next day. what if i'm with the lady who told me to practice my knots?! what if i'm with the guy who likes reviewing through scenerios i barely remember?? what if, what if, what if? that's what my brain is full of.

went to a "pumpkin patch" today. unimpressed. i thought i'd be walking through a field and picking up these pumpkins from where they grew. i was wrong. the pumpkins had already been collected and placed neatly in rows in a small area that one could walk through. can this state do nothing right??!

it wasn't so much the pumpkin patch i cared about. i really just wanted to be outside. and i wanted to play with my camera. i guess, i did do both...even if it did not turn out quite as i had imagined.

i want to watch "where the wild things are"...who's with me?!

i really like the "?!" combo. i feel like it describes most of my thoughts correctly.

i've been asked by a couple people what the heck i'm talking about in my last post. for those who don't know...i had said i'd probably do some creative writing...and mostly it won't be full stories, but just pieces of things that i think to write. that's what the last entry was about. nothing much more than that.

wow, i'm boring. k'later.