"cause i'm writing to reach you now, i might never reach you"--travis

i know i don't have nearly enough hours in the day to do this: http://www.nanowrimo.org/ but i really want to give it a try...and so i think i will. i'm full of excuses about everything all the time anyway...something i was lamenting about this past weekend...and i really need to change that, soooo...perhaps this will?

or not. more likely than not, after 2 days i'll find an excuse NOT to write and who am i kidding anyway? i can barely get the stuff done that i need to do for work, let alone anything extra.

hah...in a matter of 30 seconds, i have gone from fully motivated to absolutely deflated. go me. well, in any case...maybe i'll give it a start and we'll see how it goes from there. if anyone else out there is interested in trying, lemme know...we can motivate each other.

though, i promise you, i am a HORRIBLE motivator. i tend to like people doing what they feel like doing...not necessarily what's good for them.

so...new topic. i'm on my last week of ob, which makes me both happy and sad. happy because the hours suck and my sleep is all messed up and i basically feel like i've been like sentenced to this one floor and i never see anyone else during the day unless i go on an active search, which almost is just not worth it...mostly because the search is in vain...considering everyone else is also busy in their own respective parts of the hospital. and sad because i'm really getting a feel for this ob thing and it's a happy field for the most part. a lil bit of me wondered if i could've been happy doing ob for life...and then i remembered, i hate touching people in pain. and ob is ALL about pain. sure, the final outcome is all happy and stuff...but to get there...yea...not for me.

anyway...that was one thought. i could probably babble a bit more about that, but i suddenly don't feel like it. hah. i SAID, g'day, sirs.