"how i'll never be anything i hate. you smile, mention something that you like"--Franz Ferdinand

i had been in the most foul mood since saturday night. i know friday i was normal...perhaps even hyper (i had a chocolate dinner), and i know saturday throughout most of the day i was in very light spirits as i tried to work on catching up on my nanowrimo story (still ridiculously behind. i will prevail). then, sometime between 8 and 9pm, my mood went quite suddenly downhill and it remained that way for all of yesterday and the greater part of today.

when i'm in a bad mood, i can hear my heart "grumble grumble" and as for most people, everything in the world bothers me. it's funny...i spent most of today making a mental list of all the things that i was going to complain about on here when i got home and now...now i'm not irritable anymore and i can't remember even ONE thing to complain about. i'm freaking crazy.

i was on the computer around 4 this afternoon, still grumbling in my mind, when this person who i've never been so fond of came into the room to use the other computer. i rolled my eyes and continued my work without paying much attention and hoping he wouldn't start talking to me. of course he did. this person talks loudly...his voice resonates in a manner that i've always thought was too obnoxious, especially when i'm tired or not in the mood to hear it (which is most of the time). i have no real big reason to dislike him...i just like to keep a distance. so anyway...he starts talking and i don't want to be rude so i reply and next thing i know, we're having a full blown conversation and i'm not feeling so angry anymore. what the whaaat?? i don't understand what happened! but i won't question it, because feeling grumbly is just NOT for me.

maybe i needed something like that to remind me that though i generally have little patience for people, i'm just not a hater...and that even the most annoying, obnoxious person in the world can make me smile and make me feel like me again. i'll still roll my eyes when this guy speaks (well...mentally, i will), and i'll probably give a small unhappy sounding grunt whenever i see him walking my way, but i'll always know that he's not so horrendous and that on my worst feeling day, he got me to normal, and i dunno...that's pretty awesome.

i know this is a really cheezy post...after so many hours of feeling low, i'm at a high right now...hopefully by next post i'll be at baseline and less of a cheezball. take care, peeps.